Did l Rebel?
No! I heard the bell.
When l opened the door, there was my heart.
I gasped in anguish and shame as l saw
the clear message that read;” Free Me!”
“From what? “I cried in fear.
“O Woman”; my heart screamed out at me,
“Cut out on the hypocricy.”
“Down with the skilled tools of lying ,the
falsehoods ,and the manipulations,
combined with that hang-up competitive
I collapsed on the floor, right at the
doorstep of my heart.
Strong emotions overwhelmed me, but
suddenly, a great wave of relief swept
through me, lifting me off the floor,
washing away all the falsehoods,deceits,
confusions, self-betrayals lived.
My mind asks, “Does it feel any better?”
My heart and l confide,”Yes,we are Real!”
My ear twitches as it hears the silent
whispers with a mission to unbalance
me and instill rigid fear.
“What are you going to do? The whispers
ask,nudging me.Dont you see that you will
be the laughing stock of town,rejected
and.others will spit on your face!
Stop playing heroic games for you are
a good for nothing.Your place is with a
bucket , a broom and a pan.
I recall all the lies, l bubble them up and
spit the threats ,curses,false accusations
and defamation. The false labels l tear up
crushing them with the soles of my feet
as l laugh back:”l don’t belong there.”
“I don’t care what the world says;l know
about God’s love ,mercies and where l
am coming from.l have a whole new future
filled with hope and forgiveness.”
I lean deep into my hearts embrace and
enquire ,”What took you so long my love?
Why didn’t you arrest me earlier?”
My heart embraces me, and a sweet deep
Spirit whispers tenderly; “child of God;
Most good lessons are learnt through
experiences.Nothing was lost, you have
now gained a sense of who you are and
why you are here .Remember the freedom
you now have comes with the price of
responsibility. It’s never cheap nor prideful.
Freedom is a combination of the choices
you make plus the valued actions of
forgiving, caring, diligent work and above all
being genuine /authentic in Everything you
do and say.Listen carefully:
Love the Lord your God with all your heart
your soul, your mind ,your strength and
your neighbour as you Love yourself”
Today at last l am free, and joyful.
“UnMasked” is what is happening day
by day…one step at a time.
Charity Wairimu Ngugi Latz